Thursday, January 31, 2008

Second Chances ~ Part 29

Sorry about keeping you guys waiting an extra week. I'm really trying to get the first draft to The Gift done. It's over 30K so far and it's only half way done. I also started a fun new..and shorter story titled Kinks R Us *wiggle eyebrows* So it's keeping me busy :)

Part 29

Ryan stared down at Zack. Heaven help him, but he wanted Zack more than he wanted anything else in the world. Just the thought of having his cock in Zack’s mouth had Ryan nearly ready to come right then and there. But he didn’t want to take advantage.

“I can’t let you do this, Zack. It wouldn’t be…” Ryan never finished the sentence as Zack ignored him, took hold of his cock, and sucked it into his mouth in just a matter of seconds. Ryan threw his head back, eyes closed, and groaned. Zack’s mouth was hotter than he ever imagined and found the man very talented with his tongue.

“Please,” Ryan begged, only he didn’t know if he wanted Zack to stop or not stop. Zack’s tongue made another sweep around the head of his cock, not letting up on his suction. Oh yeah. He didn’t want Zack to stop. Fingers seeking something to steady him, they entwined tightly in Zack’s hair. His hips began thrusting forward in rhythm with Zack. “Yes.”

Zack moaned his own pleasure when Ryan’s tip hit the back of his throat.

Shudders wracked Ryan’s body as he orgasmed. Zack swallowed every drop and didn’t let go until Ryan was completely finished.

Zack stood and kissed Ryan. His own taste filled is mouth mixed with the masculine taste of Zack that was truly addicting. Ryan’s hands took the opportunity to smooth down Zack’s back and ass.

It was Zack that broke the kiss, moving away to sit on the table as Ryan had done before. Ryan fumbled, pulling himself back together. He was at a loss of words. Did he thank Zack? Not say anything? Did he expect something in return? Jesus, he felt lost as to how to handle this.

“It’s okay, Ryan.”

Ryan turned, head cocked slightly to the side.

“This is new to me also. This situation is difficult, but I’m tired, Ryan. I’m tired of fighting what I feel. Struggling to understand the why of it all.”

Ryan sighed. “I feel like I’m taking advantage of you. Your vulnerability. God, I feel like such an ass.”

Zack shook his head and chuckled. “I’m not as fragile as you think, Ryan. I’m an adult who is very attracted to you.”

Ryan rubbed his hands over his face and groaned. “You are going to be the death of my sanity.”

“Welcome to the club.” Zack smiled. “Come on. Let’s take a walk. Enjoy the nice weather.”

Tuesday, January 22, 2008

An hour late, but it's still Monday to me

I hope everyone had a great MLK day. The kids and hubby actually left me along a lot of the day and let me write. The Gift is half way done. (guess I've gotta update the sidebar)
Anyway, this little thing was over at the Immortal Heros group and thought it would be fun if any of my readers would like to see how bad you are/were ;)

My bail is $590

Just read the 'offense' and if you've done it, you owe that fine.Keep going until you've read each 'offense' and added up your total fine.

Title your bulletin 'MyBail is $........
'You don't have to confess your answers, just the amount of your fine.

Smoked pot -- $10
Did acid-- $5
Ever had sex at church --$25
Woke up in the morning and did not know the person who was next to you-- $40
Had sex with someone on MySpace -- $25
Had sex for money --$100
Vandalized something --$20
Had sex on your parents' bed -- $10
Beat up someone -- $20
Beenjumped -- $10
Crossed dressed -- $10
Given money to stripper -- $25
Been inlove with a stripper -- $20
Kissed someone who's nameyou didn't know --$10
Hit on some one of the same sexwhile at work-- $15
Ever drive drunk --$20
Ever got drunk at work, or went to work while still drunk --$50
Used toys while having sex -- $30
Got drunk, passed out and don't remember the nightbefore --$20
Went skinny dipping --$5
Had sex in a pool -- $20
Kissedsomeone of the same sex -- $10
Had sex with someone ofthe same sex -- $20
Cheated on your significant other --$10
Masturbated -- $10
Cheated onyour significant other with their relative or close friend --$20
Done oral -- $5
Got oral --$5
Done / got oral in a car while it was moving--$25
Stole something -- $10
Had sexwith someone in jail -- $25
Made a nasty home video --$15
Had a threesome -- $50
Had sexin the wild -- $20
Been in the same room while someonewas having sex -- $25
Stole something worth over morethan a hundred dollars --$20
Had sex with someone 10years older -- $20
Had sex with someone under 21 and youare over 27 -- $25
Been in love with two people or moreat the same time -- $50
Said you love someone butdidn't mean it -- $25
Went streaking --$5
Went streaking in broad daylight -- $15
Been arrested -- $5
Spent time injail -- $15
Peed in the pool -- $0.50
Played spin the bottle -- $5
Donesomething you regret -- $20
Had sex with your bestfriend >-- $20
Had sex with someone you work with atwork --$25
Had anal sex --$80
Lied to your mate -- $5
Lied to your mate about the sex being good --$25

OK , now tally up your answers and let me know how bad you are :D

Saturday, January 19, 2008

Trio of Tales is no longer available

Yes, you heard me. My first published book, Trio of Tales: Erotically Ever After is no longer available through Forbidden Publications or Fictionwise.
I thought it best not to renew the contract as it didn't do as well as I'd hoped. I will most likely rewrite the book and add a couple of more tales I have floating around to make it longer. It's one of to-dos on my goal list this year. :D

Have a great weekend!

Friday, January 18, 2008

Working hard...

On The Gift, so I thought I'd at least make an effort and drop off this sexy pic *drool* Dang it! Now my keyboard is wet. ;)

Have a great weekend everyone!

Wednesday, January 16, 2008

Second Chances ~ Part 28

Part 28

Zack was more surprised than Ryan when the words fell from his mouth. But he didn’t regret them. It was the truth. As much as he tried to deny it, try to ignore it, Zack realized he was very much attracted to Ryan. He lusted after him even though a very logical part of him knew he shouldn’t.

The revelation had come the week before. He was in a session with Dr. Parker. He’d finally gathered the courage to speak about what he could remember of that day that resulted in his near death. How Ryan had saved him.

At the time, he was barely conscious or in his right mind as pain and the loss of blood put a hamper on his awareness. Dr. Parker asked him how he felt about Ryan. He thought about it. When he pictured Ryan, he saw…Ryan. This was a bit of a shock. He’d tried not to think of him so much, scared that it would bring Rob and all the things that went wrong in the past couple of years. But now…there was no association. Yeah, Ryan looked very similar to his twin. If they wore their hair the same style and only saw them at a glance, yes, they would be identical. However, Zack knew they were as different as night and day. As ice and fire.

Some may think it sick or perverted of him, but how he saw Ryan was how he’d always wanted Rob to be.

“I like you, Ryan. I like you a lot.” He took a step, closing the distance between them. “I told myself over and over that I shouldn’t feel this way toward you. But honestly, my mind and body just won’t listen.”

It was now Ryan’s turn to appear uncomfortable, his eyes darting around and hands rubbing on his thighs.

“Zack…”

“No. Don’t try to talk me out of how I feel. Don’t try tell me that what I feel isn’t real. Don’t try to rationalize this to you saving my life. Been there. Done that. And still I feel the same.” He dragged his hands through his hair. “Christ. I want you, Ryan. I masturbated last night thinking about you.”

Okay, maybe that was TMI since Ryan was staring at him, mouth open. His hands had stopped the rubbing motion, fingers curled into fists.

Zack took a step back. Yeah, too much, he thought. Sometimes he cursed his talent for not knowing when to shut up. Now, he’d embarrassed himself. Just because they’d shared a couple of heated moments and had become friends, it didn’t mean he wanted to hook up with his fucked up self.

Ryan startled Zack by jumping off the picnic table and pulling him into his arms. His hands instinctively went to Ryan’s chest as if to push him away, but the moment his gaze locked onto those most amazing steel gray eyes, Zack completely relaxed. The kindness and warmth they exuded told him that Ryan would never hurt him. Never abuse what Zack was offering.

Ryan’s mouth crashed hard on Zack’s. It was a demanding kiss, but as Zack opened for him, it softened. Zack fell into the passion of the kiss. Ryan’s hands went from his shoulders, smoothing down the back of his shirt, to cup his ass. Zack groaned when Ryan shoved his groin into his, telling Zack what kissing him did.

Zack felt lightheaded when Ryan finally broke the kiss, gasping. He hadn’t realized that his own hands had drifted up and into Ryan’s thick, brown hair.
“I don’t want to hurt you. Or make you feel…”

Zack placed his finger over Ryan’s mouth, silencing him. He didn’t want to talk. He’s been doing enough of that with his psychologist. Right now, he wanted action. Zack was strong enough to admit that he may not be ready for complete sex with Ryan yet, however, that didn’t stop him from wanting to pleasure him.
Without thought that people might see them, Zack dropped to his knees in front of Ryan. His hands shook, but he started loosening Ryan’s belt and tearing at the button on his pants.

Ryan’s hands fell on top of his. “Zack. I couldn’t ask you to do this.”
Zack looked up and met his gaze straight on. “You didn’t ask.”


I’m so evil to leave you hanging like this Muah ha ha! So you think Ryan will let Zack? Or maybe they don’t? *shrug* I guess you’ll have to wait until next week.

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

4 Stars for Bonded Hearts!

All right. I figured out what I was doing wrong with Second Chances. Monday is soooo not a good day for me to post a new chapters. The weekends have been chaotic and only look to get worse in the upcoming months. So Monday is catch up day with all the groups, catch the promotion opportunities and trying to have the day to write also. With that in mind, I'm going to start posting the remainder of the story on Wednesdays so I have a little more time to do some longer chapters and time since I've been spending my part or all my weekends out of town. New chapter will be up sometime tomorrow :)

Did get some good news :D Just Erotic Romance Reviews (JERR) gave Dragon Riders 1: Bonded Hearts 4 Stars.

"Dragon Riders 1: Bonded Hearts made me fall in love with dragons all over again. There was enough action, drama and romance for any book junkie to love." ~ Suni Farrar

For full review: http://groups.yahoo.com/group/justeroticromancereviewsnewsletter/message/317

Good reviews always make my day!

Also, stop by my other blog, Worlds of Mayhem.
The holidays and personal difficulties kind of put us in an hiatus, but I'm trying to make more regular posts as I've got lots of good books lined up to post. I'm also organizing the books in the sidebar by genres for those who are looking for something specific.

Friday, January 11, 2008

Studying the craft of writing

Hello out there! Yes, it's me and I'm still alive. lol
I know I said that I wanted to try and keep up regular posting on my blog this year...and I've done a poor job of it, huh? Well, it's still January, so I'm going to try another hand at it. lol

My son and his wife gave me a BAM gift certificate for Christmas. So I bought books.
But not just any books. It's been awhile since I've indulged in some that will help me with the craft of writing.

One of the books I purchased is Breathing life into your characters by Rachel Ballon, Ph.D. It focuses on how to give your character emotional and psychological depth. The author is a psychotherapist who specializes in working with writers.

I'm not quite half way through, as I'm reading a little here and there, but there's exercises to do. The author's philosophy is that a writer can't write a convincing character unless you are open to your own emotions. So far, the exercises I've come across concentrate on doing this by freewriting.

Which brings me to this post. When I used to sit and write in my journels (long before computers), I freewrote. It's actually a very inimate experience for me because it was just me, a pen, and paper and I wrote all the emotions I was feeling at that time down. Looking back at them now (yes I still have them and take them out every few years) I think WTF? Some makes sense and I remember it clearly. Other times, I just stare at the words confused wondering why I felt that way over something I now see as petty.

I thought I'd share what Dr.Ballon had to say about freewriting.

Write as freely and as rapidly as possible and throw the whole thing on paper. Never correct or rewrite untilt he whole thing is down. ~~~John Steinbeck

When you first begin to write, concentrate on the writing process itself and not on the technique. Write your ideas without worying whether they're good enough. By staying in the moment, your writing will flow. This method of writing from your inner world is the first burst of imagination that comes to you in a moment of inspiration. It's known as free or automatic writing because you write without worrying about grammar, spelling, or punctuation. Just keep the pen moving and don't lift it from the page for at least 15 minutes.

The amazing phenomenon about freewriting is that the words flow from the pen naturally and unrestricted by thought, making them rich to emotion and description. Since freewriting taps into your uninhibited inner truths, your writing will have more defintie shape and be filled with specificity, and your characters will have a depth and honesty as never before.

Since many of the writing exercises prsented in this book draw on freewriting techniques, the exercises enable you to reach your inner depths and mine the buried treasure within. They allow you to awaken your inner characters and transform them into fascinating fictional characters. By working through the writing exercises, you'll go on a journey to relive and emotionally reexperience your childhood stories, memories, and feelings through the use of visualization and writing.


I thought this was an interesting section of the book, having never really thought that I was freewriting during all those years. I just thought it was therapy to my soul. lol

Wednesday, January 09, 2008

Second Chances ~ Chapter 27

Sorry it's a bit late. I got totally absorbed with trying to finish the first draft of The Gift by the end of the weekend (still got a bit to go). I even forgot to post on Monday at Slash and Burn blog. *banging head on desk* But here's the next chapter. I'll try and not keep Ryan and Zack hanging like I did

Chapter 27

Ryan couldn’t believe this was happening. He leaned closer to Zack and fiercely returned the kiss like a man starving. His cock throbbed, filling with blood. He wanted Zack. Everything about the man aroused Ryan’s interest.

The clearing of a throat brought them both back to where they were. On a sidewalk in the middle of downtown. Neither was ashamed, they were openly gay men, but personally, PDA was usually kept to a minimum.

Zack’s cheeks flushed red and he looked away. Ryan chuckled, hooked his arm into Zack’s and dragged him toward his vehicle.

“Where are we going?” Zack asked once they were in the truck.

“Somewhere a bit more private to talk.” Ryan glanced over at Zack and saw that he was fidgeting. Ryan wanted to reach out and touch him, but he kept his hands on the wheel, not sure how he would react. He smiled. “It was a kiss, Zack. I’m not taking you somewhere to molest you. I just want to talk.”

Zack stared at me a minute before he relaxed and leaned more comfortably into the seat. “All right.”

Ryan reminded himself that it was just a kiss. He couldn’t…wouldn’t rush Zack. Rob had put him through hell. He wasn’t about to push him into doing something he wasn’t ready to do, no matter how attracted Ryan was to him.

Ryan drove toward the city limits. It didn’t take long since the town wasn’t very big. He turned left just past the city limit sign onto a small paved road. He drove until he saw the sign: Chaparral Park. This was a place that they could talk and not be overshadowed by the idea of a bed a room away. He hoped Zack would feel comfortable enough here. There would be plenty of room and if…a big if, they decided to try kissing again, then they wouldn’t be making a spectacle of themselves.

“I haven’t been here in years.”

“Me either.” Ryan wasn’t about to admit to taking his boyfriends here to make-out when he was in high school.

The parking lot was empty. Taking a spot closet to the nature trail, Ryan parked the car and turned off the engine. “Come on.” He got out of the truck and went to the nearest picnic table and sat on it. Zack followed, looking a bit nervous.

“So…” Zack spoke first. He was still standing, pivoting from foot to foot.
Ryan smiled. “Seriously, Zack. You’ve gotta calm down. I promise, I won’t jump your bones.”

Zack’s hands slipped into his pockets. His gaze fell to his feet. “What if I want you to?”

Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Happy New Year!

Myspace Comments - Happy 2008 - Care To Join Me?

Have a great day and Zack and Ryan will be back Monday!!!